mranthonyyoung asked: Hey are u on ig?
I’m having a dark day, I can’t take it anymore. I wish people knew, they don’t have the slightest clue what is going on in my head. I didn’t do it. I don’t even know what i’m saying anymore, I am the most selfish person I know, I have so many people that love me and I push them away. I’m ashamed of myself, I feel like I’m a piece of shit of society, Its been 6 months since I’ve been in the hospital and I contemplate everyday why I didn’t fully follow through with it, I was so close. When I was smoking my cigarette on the back porch, looking at the snow falling and as each snowflake fell on me, I realized how beautiful the design of each flake, not one is alike. It gave me hope for the time being, this past year has been so fucked up. I want to quit everything and just start a new life, my life is the definition of a lie. There is still hope, I know God has a plan for me, even if it is not as the one I planned.